about us brian (country mouse) is from new hampshire. karel (city girl) is from the new york metro area. in summer 2008 they drove across the US and moved to portland, oregon. here are their adventures, photos, and observations.
I having trouble reading this as I type it, because I am tired and my eyes want to close. But I put off saying this for a couple days already and can't wait another.
I was recently posed with a very difficult decision concerning our little girl Luna.
I absolutely love Luna for so many reasons. She is energetic. She has always been happy to see us when we come home or wake up.
Luna loves to fetch and since we've had her I have been able to teach her to drop stuff if she wants me to throw it again. She used to try and get me to tug the stick with her and never want to drop it. It's amazing to watch her learn.
She knows everything I do with her is good and fully trusts my actions. She doesn't give me a hard time when it comes to bath time. I drag in the hose and connect it in the basement to the hot water tap (where a washing machine would connect to) and hose her down upstairs in the bathroom. She never struggles to get away when I dry her off. She knows when it's wet outside that I need to dry her wet paws off before she can run around. I can play with her ears her teeth and claws and even pick the eye boogers off her face with no objections.(Mom you know what those are)
Her favorite thing i believe is the belly rub. We'll come home and she'll be so excited to see us. When I kneel down to her she sits and then buries her head between my legs then rolls over so I can rub her stomach. It's adorable and I can't get enough of it! She has many weird activities. She finds it necessary to bite her foot so aggressively that she rolls around and hits stuff in the process. I've seen her nip at her tail a couple times too.
With Luna there is no shortage of love and excitement and for me I feel she is entirely the right type of dog and companion. I can leave her alone and be entertained by her antics. Running around in big circles, chewing sticks, trying to climb a tree to get a squirrel and such.
I've been increasingly saddened over the last month because of my inability to give her the amount of attention she needs and knowing that soon I will be doing less for her.
Since Karel and I moved out here I have found out what depression feels like. I've never experienced it before like this and it took me a little while to figure out exactly why I was feeling this way. Back in NH I had an activity schedule that I kept up with. Every Tuesday I would play cards with friends. Thursday night was bowling with Mom and the team. My brother Chris and I would frequently play pool and ride bikes. All my other time was dedicated to many different things. Riding 1 of my 3 bikes was top of the list because it's something I have to do. There's no activity I love more than biking. Time with my family was next especially Chris. I love him lots and hate being separated from him. I always had something to do and it's the way my life has always been.
After moving out here that all dissolved. I had no friends out here, I didn't know where to go for anything, I no longer had anybody to go biking with, and all my other activities I have needed to be established again. It's been a very difficult task to complete but I am building it up.
Even though we have a loving and amazing dog who is a great fit for me personally I still felt that depression. I realized what I've been missing is my activities. Back home we had 2 dogs and I love them both but what I didn't think about was there was always someone else home to be with them when I was not. Out here when I'm not home, usually Karel isn't also which means nobody for Luna.
I would cry when I left for the day and knew she was all alone in the basement. I was sad because she had nobody to play with and it was my fault. I love her very much but I wasn't giving her the attention she needed. Our schedule has become busier now that we are more established here in Portland and that has meant even more alone time for Luna. In my mind I was left with only 1 logical option. I had to find her another home so she could have the attention she deserved.
I asked for help from friends here to find a home but that turned up nothing I was comfortable with. I then decided to post on craigslist and at 650 am the next morning I got a call from Anna, who would then later accept out little girl Luna.
Luna is now in a home where she is with someone for all but 4 hours a day and the entire time has another dog to play with. I met with them and had the dogs do their thing and after checking out their situation I felt good about letting them have Luna. My main concern was bringing her somewhere that I wouldn't regret. I think I was lucky finding this couple.
I'm glad to have had her even though for a short time. The amount of love I shared with her will last with me. I learned a great deal by taking care of her and watching her learn and grow. My timing was wrong and I'm sad.
-brian-
posted by brian at 1:00 AM
2 Comments:
Mom said...
Aww, you made me cry again, but at least you were able to find the kind of home Luna deserves and put her needs before yours. I know some day in the future your life will be at a place where you can own a dog and feel good about it.
you made me cry too but it does sound like you found her a wonderful home and you know that she is happy and has a friend to play with. We will keep her picture on our computers and remember all the happiness she gave to you in the few months that you had her.
2 Comments:
Aww, you made me cry again, but at least you were able to find the kind of home Luna deserves and put her needs before yours. I know some day in the future your life will be at a place where you can own a dog and feel good about it.
you made me cry too but it does sound like you found her a wonderful home and you know that she is happy and has a friend to play with. We will keep her picture on our computers and remember all the happiness she gave to you in the few months that you had her.
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